HOLY HEARTFAILURE BATMAN!

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 23:40:41 GMT

Good bye, Live Journal.

I'm dead.

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 03:32:08 GMT

Tagged by Jenny!

List five songs that you currently love. It doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the songs in your blog. Then tag five other LiveJournal friends to see what they're listening to.

Chain Sling - Pain of Salvation

Moondance - Nightwish

Karma - Kamelot

Paralyzed - Into eternity

Rope Ends - Pain of Salvation

I tag anyone who wishes to share their music with us :).

I had no sleep last night. We got a Wii, though. haha. Wewt parking lot camping.

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 03:54:37 GMT

I've decided that it's about time I updated... but I don't really have anything to say that's really exciting. So yeah, just bear with me.. or you know, skip over this update.

Had a good weekend. Very good, actually.

Not looking forward to Hallowe'en... I just wish I had more time :'(..

Carving pumpkins tomorrow. I'll make sure to take pictures.

Just saying that I'm alive really, and nothing's changed.

Except I actually had a really good weekend.

Okay, love you all!

<3.

How do you solve a problem like augmented matricesssss~?

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 01:51:37 GMT

You guys aren't alone in the math department. If augmented matrices were living, breathing organisms, I would fire at them blindly with an automatic machine rifle until they were extinct.

I went to crew today, and surprise surprise, didn't do much. I started helping Ms. Yeager out with the costumes a little, though and I sorted through "the Nunery". I've been missing from crew forrrrr.... a little over two weeks, and they still have almost the same amount of stuff done as when I left. Sad? haha. There're only 5 crew members too, I think.

Amber, I won't be able to make it on Friday, because Cody is not here. The Rolling Stones are starting to ruin my life. Just kidding..

But that one intern is a little bit annoying. Not only did she take over my English class, she took over my Social class too. Which was one of my favourite classes BECAUSE of Mr. Panko. Everything we do with her it seems is really boring. Instead of having like, a class discussion we took notes.

I hate lunch time too. Especially when you sit by yourself, doing math, surrounded by annoying, obnoxious, screaming, immature grade nines. Were WE ever that horrible?

What else did I want to say here?

I work everyday this weekend (again) but I might have Monday off, which will be excellent. I'm so happy, because all major assignments will be out of the way, as tests will be too. It will be one major lie about (minus work)... but I like work, so it's okay. Thanksgiving, too!

I was thinking this would be a short update... (didn't I say that last time, too?) But it seems like I can write a lot about nothing. I just spread it out, I guess.

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 22:27:39 GMT

So, I've only made one entry this month, and it's almost the end of it too! So here I ammmm (once again...) haha *shoots self*

I really want to go on exchange. Really bad... although I'm not sure if I'd be able to go for a full year... But anyways, I know that the Rotary would sponser someone to go to Japan and that's where I'd want to go.

And it's not just because I'm an anime/manga freak, okay? haha

I'm just completely fascinated with the culture and the scenery and all that... just, wow.

This is how my conversation with my mother went:

Jamie: Mom, how would you feel if I were to go on exchange next year, after highschool?
Mom: *just staring* Uhm... but... that's so far, and a year is so long *jibber jibber*

A little while later...

Jamie: But Mom! I'm going to be moving out sooner or later! And you're going to have to accept that!
Mom: But not across the world!
Jamie: Well what if I want to go to school in Toronto, or Vancouver?!
Mom: Jamie, come on! As if..
Jamie: WELL I'M NOT GOING TO SIAST!
Mom: WHY NOT?!

haha, oh Mom. *temples pop*

Well, I'm off to paint!
And watch Fruits Basket, or Memoirs of a Geisha or something...

Haha. I feel like a nerd now.

Maybe I'll just stick with the death metal.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 21:59:16 GMT

Short update.

I've skipped crew for a week and a half straight, because of the amount of homework I've gotten.

Cody likes to treat this as a big deal, because I'm incompetent for having so much homework and he's a big time Siast student now. Except, he's always been mad at me for having so much homework.

I really don't know why it takes me so long to do my homework. Maybe he's just faster than me. Or maybe I take longer to do a more indepth approach to it.

I would just appreciate it if he would be more sympathetic towards my homework woes instead of getting angry and telling me it's my own fault.

Because I choose to do homework everyday.

I love him, though.

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 01:34:21 GMT

Updating on life is so in vogue lately. So let's take a crack at this, shall we?

I had detention for the first time since grade 1 today. It was pretty great, and totally not my fault. I was 17 seconds late for Mr. Toth's class first thing in the morning, so I had to stay for 15 minutes after school. Britain was supposed to stay as well, and according to Mr. Toth, he was the only reason I had to stay too.
I talked to Mr. Toth about the injustice of my detention, but he cleared it up for me. I stopped hating him after that.
Amber paid a visit to my 15 minute prison after school today. I love you, you made me laugh so hard hahaha.

Speaking of math, I have a test tomorrow that I'm so... not prepared in any way, shape, or colour tomorrow. I just... almost started crying today trying to figure a question out, and once Mr. Toth showed me it seemed so simple. I just don't get this probability thing.

I bought work/band pants today after school, but I still forgot to pick up my Senior shirt... Would they throw it out if I just don't go get it?

I also bought a bunch of scrapbooking paper today from Dollarama. I was planning on buying stickers too, but I just got too preoccupied by vellum paper <3. So Christi, I hope you stocked up. I also lost my only magazine that I was planning on cutting stuff out of, so yeah. Maybe I'll go find a cheap one, or something. I don't know. Remind me to bring my camera to school tomorrow, too, okay?

Crew is starting up really soon... I don't know how I'm going to fit it all in with work and school and band and everything. I really want to join yearbook this year too, and hopefully find time to fit in some art of some sort. Get a tablet or something.

On the topic of band, I started playing French Horn again, and I don't remember anything haha. It's so confuse.

I've learned that I'm always looking for change, and I love to challenge myself with new things... that's what my personality test in Ethics told me, anyways. And you know what? I think it's true.

I'm not sure how I feel about it, though.

Ta!

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 04:35:03 GMT

I have weird fruit at my house.

C'mon, everybody's doing it!

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 21:12:41 GMT

Jamie Fantasical Table of Goodness!
Sem 1!	Sem 2!
Math B30 - Toth	Math C30 - Toth
Comp Sci 20 - Moser	Life Transy 30 - Wells
Social 30 - Panko	Art 30 - AUDIT :O
LUNCH!!!	LUNCH!!!
Ethics 30 - I don't know yet	Creative Writing 30 - Yeager
Eng C30 - Yeager	SPARE!

I thought the table was cool. Anyways. Compare?

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:12:10 GMT

deviantART v5 makes me very, very sad.

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 19:12:54 GMT

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends.

* I have long hair.
* I love to play video games.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I curse sometimes. As opposed to constantly.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job(s).
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. Occasionally.
* I'm an Artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries or provinces
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro game consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer. Built by my own fair hands!
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
* I wish I could do High School all over again.
* I have loved Pokemon since the beginning and continue to do so.
* There's no genre of music I dislike.
* I've read every work written by my favorite author(s).
* No matter how much I sleep, I'm always tired.
* I'd rather eat out than cook.
* I am obsessed with actors that are older than I am.
* I can move my little toes independently.
* I still fantasize once in a while about an ex.
* I enjoy purchasing and wearing articles of clothing and/or accessories that have skulls on them.
* I find incredible freedom in being restricted.
* I hate not knowing how to love
* I trip over my own feet at least once a week.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* I hate shopping for shoes.
* I'm a clepto
* I really dislike the color yellow.
* I'm named after a relative, but with my middle name, rather than my first.
* My favourite TV shows are all cartoons.
* I'm afraid of the dark.
* I've made over 10,000 posts on one message board.
* I like being a travelwhore even though I have to be persuaded into it most the time.
* If anyone ever really knew me, or what its like to be me, they'd probably need therapy for life.
* Looking in a mirror makes my physically ill sometimes.
* I've broken off an engagement.
* I am still a virgin.
* I wish I wasn't still a virgin
* I am so involved in things at school that I have almost no time to even sleep.
* I didn't/am not going to add anything to the end of this list, because there was/is nothing interesting that I could/can think of to add.

So.. just how girly am I?

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 05:58:28 GMT

[x] My fingernails/toenails are almost always done.
[x] During the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] My favorite toys as a child were barbies
[ ] My favorite colour is pink or purple
[ ] I did Gymnastics.
[x] I love skirts.
[ ] Hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[x] Tight jeans are the only jeans I'll wear. haha, woops
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I've never had a real job.

TOTAL: 5

[ ] My hair is almost always straightened.
[ ] I have at least 8 myspace pictures.
[x] I usually go shopping once a week.
[x] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[x] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings.
[x] I've gone to a tanning salon.
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan.
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach.
[ ] I change my icon weekly.
[ ] I wear a shower cap.

TOTAL: 5

[x] I dont shop at Hot Topic.
[x] My cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[x] I wear mascara everyday.
[x] I've been or am on a diet.
[x] Bathing suits are adorable.
[ ] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] Big sunglasses are hot. just not on me.
[x] I have gotten my nails done before.
[ ] MTV is one of my favorite channels.

TOTAL: 7

[ ] All I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys!
[ ] I love to have gurls do my hair. no one touches my hair but me. and occasionally my mom.
[x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends.
[x] I hate bugs.
[x] Carnivals are so fun!
[ ] Summer is THE best season.
[x] My swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] I'm waiting for my knight in shining armor.
[x] Musicians are so hot.
[ ] You write me a poem and tell me I'm beautiful and I'm all yours.

TOTAL: 5

[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I cry often.
[ ] My car smells like vanilla or cherry. I smell like vanilla
[x] My dishes get washed more than once a week.
[x] I don't do sports.
[x] I HATE to run.
[x] I squeal when I am surprised or angry.
[ ] I eat dried fruit as a snack.
[ ] I love romance novels.
[x] Drew Barrymore is so cute.

TOTAL: 7

[x] I dance a lot.
[x] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house.
[x] I only have like 5 billion hair products.
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[ ] Every part of my outfit needs to match.
[x] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends.
[x] I would love to have a photo shoot.
[ ] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day.
[ ] I wish I were a model.

TOTAL: 6

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton.
[ ] I have been something that was semi.
[ ] I own Uggs.
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music.
[ ] I pop my collar.
[ ] I like to be the center of attention.
[ ] Guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ] Horses are beautiful.
[ ] I'd rather not pay attention in school.
[x] Cats are adorable. <3

TOTAL: 1

[ ] I write my own music.
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii.
[x] Valentine's day is so cute!
[x] White is better than black.
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black.
[ ] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes.
[ ] Hate the grunge look.
[ ] I love to read magazines.

TOTAL: 3

[x] I love to gossip.
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid.
[ ] I love Celine Dion.
[ ] My bubble baths are 1-2hrs long.
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned.
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[x] I like little kids.
[ ] Diet drinks are the best.
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian. how about carinvore?
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonalds.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] I check my myspace everyday.
[x] I love life! VIVA LIFE!
[x] I have a lot of jewelery!
[ ] My screen name(s) have x's in them.
[ ] Either one of my myspace names has/had <3's or in them.
[x] I would never want to be the opposite sex.
[ ] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it.
[x]I have more than 3 pillows on my bed.

TOTAL: 4

Oh, I'm only 46% girly! Haha, I thought it would've been higher, but the questions were pretty specific for me

Feel free to steal and enjoy :).

It's because I'm cool like Iggy! Ho ho ho!

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 08:09:34 GMT

Character development sheet for Creative Writing. Yes, i'm quite aware that it's the third week of summer hols.

Character analysis: Oliver

Basics:
1) What's your character's name?
Oliver Rhys Reid

Prefers:
Oliver

2) How old is he/she?
16, 17

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Guy.

4) What's his/her race?
Uhm, human, hehe.

Appearance:
1) Is he/she considered attractive?
Moderately. Not ugly... probably just above average.

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Very.

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
Dark brown messy hair, long face

4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
Hmm... possibly.

Personality:
1) Temper:
Oliver is mainly quiet, especially around people he doesn't know very well. But if he's comfortable enough (ie, his family) he'll let his short temper fuse.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
He gets really confused about what he wants in life, and where he's going. He's very torn about who he is. If that's a reason to get depressed, then yeah.

3) Leader or Follower?
I never really thought about this.. I think he's just too quiet to be a leader at this point.

4)What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
Indecisive, afraid, two-faced.

History:
1) Does your OC have a family of any sort?
He's never met his father, but he has a mother who has a boyfriend that moved in. Her boyfriend, John, also brought his 15-year-old daughter, Kelsi to live with them. Apart from that, there's Logan, who's 14, and 3-year-old twin sisters, Jessica and Desiree.

2) Is your character out on his/her own?
No, he lives at home.

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Hmm.. I dunno. Maybe I could throw in that his father's in jail or something haha.

4) What was probably the best time in his/her life so far?
When he discovered the Tearoom (his hideaway).

Romance:
1) Single?
Well, he's a swinger.

2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
No, but he will.. with his conscience! Dun dun dunnnn

3) Virgin?
Nope, far from it.

4) Does your character like flirting?
I don't think so, but he does it anyways to get some.

Symbolism:
1) What animal would you associate your OC with?
One of those moths that blends in with stuff, haha.

2) Musical Instrument?
A keyboard

3) Element?
Let's go with electricity.

4) Planet?
Yeish. Venus?

Showing the Love:
1) Do you draw your character?
I haven't yet, actually.

2) Do you write about him/her?
That's why I'm writing this.

3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
I don't do that kind of thing anymore.

4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
Just writing.

RANDOMIZE!
1) Is your character wanted for anything?
I don't think he's been caught.

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her?
Well, he's torn mentally and doesn't really know who he is. He's really two-faced. He has a short temper. He only really cares about one thing and person right now.

3) Strengths?
I think at this point his strengths are somewhat undefined because of his state of mind.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke (ect.)?
Both. Some drug usage as well.

5) What's one quirk about him/her?
He goes everyday after school to a teashop. His best friend is the old lady that runs it, and he likes to read poetry.

6) Does your character have any phobias?
The Occult and spiders.

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage?
He's an angsty teen. I think this depends on his mood right now haha.

8) Does your OC like chickens?
I think so.. haha.

The Final Question:

What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?
We'd probably be the kind of friends that talk at school, but don't really know anything about each other.

Some sort of procrastination.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 22:59:17 GMT

*My Top 8*
#1:	Cody
#2:	Amber
#3:	Daniel
#4:	Danielle
#5:	Novak
#6:	Britt
#7:	Christi
#8:	Garrett
About #1
How long have you know this person?:	3 years about.
Do you love this person?:	Yep.
Is this person your best friend?:	Yep.
Have you ever done anything out of control with this person?:	Whoa yeeeaahhh ;D haha.
Have you and this person ever stayed up all night together?:	Yep.
Are you in this persons top 8?:	I better be!
Where?:	#1 D:
On a scale of 1 to 5 how much do you care about this person? 5 being the hi:	6.
And here is #2
Have you ever dated this person?:	Oh yeah, me and Amber are off and on all the time.
Have you ever kissed this person?:	Haha, no sorry.
Have you ever fallen in love with this person?:	Not fallen in love.
Does this person know everything about you?:	Nope. BWAHA, Amber.
Do you know everything about this person?:	Nope. BWAHA, me.
Have you ever laid under the stars together?:	Uhhmmm... nope. I don't think so... wait! Yeah, at my birthday or something, on the trampoline haha.
Do you love this person?:	Yep. Non-sexually.
Does this person know that?:	Yep.
Does this person love you?:	She better.
Does this person know all of your secrets?:	"Does this person know everything about you?" haha I already said, "No!" BWAHA, bitch survey!
Are you in this person's top 8?:	Yeees?
Where?:	I don't know.
What is one thing people would be surprised to hear about you and # 2?:	Haha uhmm. We like to discuss the size of certain Russian monks. Ho ho!
And here is #3
Have you ever gone out with this person?:	No.
Does this person have a nickname for you?:	Not that he's ever told me, haha.
Do you and this person have anything in common?:	We both like to draw and write... I dunno, yeah.
Are you on this person's top 8?:	Better be!
Where?:	I don't know... I'm probably not even on his list haha.
And #4
Is this person a boy of girl?:	Girl... obviously.
Have you ever dated this person?:	No! Haha, I'm not into girls, hello.
Have you ever gone swimming with this person?:	Yep.
Have you ever been to a sports game with this person?:	Oh, probably.
How Many?:	I don't know! God, bitch survey.
Have you ever met this person's parents?:	Yep.
Have you ever done anything illegal with this person?:	Haha, yeah.
Are you in this person's top 8?:	Hopefully.
Where?:	Stop asking me this!
Oh, and #5
Does this person completely rock?:	Haha, basically.
Do you love this person?:	Yes, in a non-sexual way.
Does this person know that?:	Maybe, I don't know.
What is this person's favorite song?:	Yankee Doodle, definately.
Have you ever been on a team together?:	Yeah, in English.
Is this person pretty?:	Very. (Novak! You're beautiful!) haha. :)
Are you in this person's top 8?:	Maybe.
Where?:	GUH! Leaving this blank from now on/
Good old #6
Have you ever gone out with this person?:	Haha, I like how it asks this question for all the girls.
Have you ever worked with this person?:	Nope
Where?:	...
Have you ever ditched this person?:	Once. Because I'm a bad person :(.
Does this person have fun with you?:	I dunno, but I have fun with her.
Are you in this person’s top 8?:	...
Where?:	...
What about #7
Does this person have a bf/gf?:	Yep.
Does this person play sports?:	Uhm... Hey Christi, do you play sports?
Which ones?:	What ones?
Have you ever gone on a trip with this person?:	I think a band/choir trip.
Do you talk to this person a lot?:	Not a lot, but sometimes
Are you in this person's top 8?:	...
Where?:	...
Yeah! and finally it's time for the last one #8
Have you ever gone out with this person?:	Almost.
Has this person ever wanted to go out with you?:	Yep.
Does this person have a crush on you?:	Probably not anymore.
Have you ever gotten into a fight with this person?:	Once or twice.
Does he or she care about you?:	Maybe.
Do you love him/her?:	No, not love.
Are you in this person's top 8?:	Maybe
Where?:	...
Complete Random questions about the rest
Who knows you the best?:	Cody.
How many are guys?:	4.
How many are girls?:	C'mon, use your math skills.
How many have you dated?:	1
How many have you kissed?:	1
Which one is your best guy friend?:	Cody, or Daniel.
Are any of them your bf/gf?:	Yep.
Which one is the most fun?:	Amber or Cody... or Derek.. or Britt... or Daniel... or all of them.
Which one do you like to lie under the stars with?:	Any of them.
Which one is your best girl friend?:	Amber.
Which one do you get along with the best?:	Daniel.
Which one do you get along with the worst?:	Poor Cody. Don't tell him. Haha, I love him to death, though.

Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

The Knife, the Toast, and You.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 01:37:28 GMT

Yeah, this is the best I can come up with.

Alas, I am completely alone now. Not a scoop, not a crumb, nor a spot remains. Oh, for woe! I am just an empty jar, and there’s no place for me in the cupboards of life. Why, oh why, did you spread my last remains upon your toast? How could be so selfish as to take what was rightfully mine, the only thing I had for myself?
My marmalade was very precious to me. It was sweet, but tangy with the aftertaste of citrus that couldn’t be beat, and you knew it, too! At first, it was only a little bit. And that’s okay, because I don’t mind sharing. But then, you became hungrier, and hungrier, until my glassy shell was hollow and deep with the wounds of lost love. You just could not resist opening my hard lid, turning and turning until it popped off with the lustful gleaming in your eyes! You’d reach in greedily with your accomplice, your knife; scraping me on the inside. It cut me deep, yet you didn’t seem to mind.

The knife, the toast, and you.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 04:52:29 GMT

Ew, okay... so upon reading that entry I've decided that my job's unhealthy. (Everyone else in the entire universe: Okay people, she's finally out of denial) Although, that said it's unlikely that I'm going to quit. But I need to... I just don't know how to do it. If I really tell her how I feel, I don't want to go back for two more weeks to spend quality time with her. Yet, what else am I going to say? And do I write a letter? 'Cause I can't tell her in person! Uhg. I hate Dairy Queen. No one go there! Their ice cream is made of evil!
Haha, just kidding.

OR AM I? D:

I really don't want to be working 5 days a week there. Which is probably what is going to be happening this summer. No friggen way.

Help!

So yeah, Creative Writing is the devil. I just can't write. Or keep my attention focussed. Or both, most likely. How can time have gone by so fast? Yet so slow at the same time?!

I painted tonight for like, 5 hours... but I didn't even get that far. Like, Christ haha. It's retarded.

I really wish there was... 4 more weeks left of Creative Writing. WHY did I let work control me? Why DO I STILL let work control me?!

Probably the best survey ever. Why aren't they all like this?

1) List 20-ish things that you want to say to people, but never will.

2) Don't say who they are.

3) Never discuss it again.

1. I wish that you could stop taking words out of my mouth. It really hurts my feelings, and none of it is even true.

2. I really care for you, and I think that if things had been different our relationship would have been different.

3. Stop thinking that you need other people around you. You are an amazing person and you're seriously being overly pessimistic. Just know that I love you, and you don't need anyone else to control you.

4. I hate you so fucking much. You're fat, and ugly, and mean. I swear, you're like the over-pompous sister-in-law of Satan.

5. And you're like the skinny horrible sister of the sister-in-law.

6. I wish you didn't change. Either that, or I wish I was still ignorant to what you did to me, and all of your friends. You're horrible for that, but I still like you... or our memories together.

7. There's nothing between us, so please stop thinking that there is or was.

8. Some people just need a rest time. They're stressed out over one thing or another or whatever and it's not like we don't care about you.

9. You're such a whore. Get over yourself. Cow.

10. Stop thinking there's nothing more important than setting aside four hours a night for band practice.

11. Stop being emo, because everytime I try to talk to you, I'm not getting the person I want to talk to. I miss your happy little self, and I want to have a conversation with YOU.

12. What did I ever fucking do to you to deserve the trash you dished out? I don't even know you, yet you're talking about me and giving me dirties. I'm a fucking customer, bitch, now get me my fucking Chai tea.

13. I'm not sure what I did to you, either. Or why you felt the need to gang up on me with the rest of our "friends". This is exactly what happened to you, and now don't blame me for being confused on why you're now doing it to me. Half an hour ago we were best friends. Like, WTF.

14. I can't believe you could be so... permiscuous, like really. It's kind of sickening, and I wish you'd have more self respect than to talk about how you sucked some guy off at a party in the middle of my biology class. Believe it or not, I'd rather be listening to Mr. Cruz.

15. I QUIT! Why? Because you're a fucking bitch. You don't follow labor laws, or treat your employees more than dirt. Well, at least the ones you don't favor.

16. You, on the other hand, are the coolest boss. You rock, don't ever change.

17. Shave the moustache. Please.

18. I really wish I had gotten to know you better before you graduated.

19. I like you, a lot. And I think you might have liked me too.

20. You bug the hell out of me. And it's okay to hate you, because you're not a nice person. I'm sorry if I "disgust you", just don't look next time. Simple?

21. Stop being so dependent on one person. You're a strong person, and you're not going to die without him, no matter what you think.

22. I really like you, but why do you diminish my every chance of success?

23. Band is not my life, like it is yours. It's time you get that through your thick head. Go practice in a cave somewhere.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 04:24:27 GMT

Haha, okay, so this kinda popped up. I think it was written May 22, which was Victoria Day. Anyways, enjoy an old update (hurrah for oxymorons).

Okay, so I thought that since it's been over a month since my last real update, that maybe I'd give this a go..

Well, today is mine and Cody's uhmm... 25 month anni together. (God get away from me!) Haha, kidding. Only somedays :) ;). After I got off work, Cody, Derek and Britt came and got me and we went out for supper to Pizza Hut. It was good, yup yup. After we were done there we went for a walk to Cresent Park, but we had to leave after 15 minutes because Cody was dying of allergies. Then we went back to Derek's house and had a giant four person orgy.

Just kidding.

So my life. My work life.
What is there to say? I worked 35/48 hours. That's 13 hours to myself, minus sleeping... I'd say just enough time left to get in and out of my pyjamas and work clothes. really though, for three hours tonight that I went out was the only time I wore non-work clothes. And I still have on my black work capris haha.

Today was probably the worst out of all of it. Janice was just... unbearable today. There was no pleasing her, and I actually came close to tears three times. I didn't get a break (6 hour shift) and she was riding my ass so hard I almost pooped. Okay, that was too much, but now you get a better picture.

Tue, 23 May 2006 04:37:46 GMT

MP3 Quiz. What you do is you put your mp3 player on random and answer these questions according to the song that pops up.

Personality

How would you describe yourself?
Get a Clue - Prozzak

How would your friends describe you?
99 Luft Balloons - Nina (whatever her name is... 99 Red Balloons in German if you didn't get that ;))

Your family?
I'm Content with Losing - Underoath

Are you generous?
More than a Feeling - Boston

Do you have a short temper?
Achy Breaky Heart - Billy Ray Cyrus

Are you a procrastinator?
Drift Away - Unkle Kracker

How do you feel about yourself?
Shot Through the Heart - Bon Jovi

How do you feel about others?
Rasputin - Boney M

What do you think of puppies/kittens?
Ride the Wings of Pestilence - From First to Last

Friends

How would you describe your best friend?
We Like to Party - Vengaboys (lol)

What do you like to do with your friends?
Secrets Don't Make Friends - From First to Last

Where is your favorite hangout?
Middle of Nowhere - Hot Hot Heat

A phrase or word that would describe your group of friends:
Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny - Lemon Demon

What do you say about your friends when they are not around?
Beginning of the End - Into Eternity

Name something you'd like to do with your friends, that you've never done:
The Suffering - Coheed and Cambria

Love

So what will or is your true love like?
You Can't Touch This - MC Hammer (Ohhh :() lol XD

What does he/she think of you?
The Phantom of the Opera theme - Nightwish ....I see. lol :(

What do you guys like to do?
10000 Fists - Disturbed (LOL 10000 FISTS?? XD omg.)

What will everybody be saying at your wedding?
Unholy Confessions - Avenged Sevenfold (O___O;;;)

What will your honeymoon be like?
I Like to Watch - Prozzak XDD

Any kids in your future?
Boom Boom Boom Boom - Vengaboys XDDDDDD!

Describe the love you share:
Taste of Tears - Cauterize ...hmm.

Describe:

your job
Comlicated - Avril Lavigne (1. What's the song doing on here? lol. 2. Pretty true, actually)

your car
100 Years - Five for Fighting (Ain't this true, too haha.)

your house
Send me an Angel - Thrice

your family
Blindfolds Aside - Protest the Hero

your next vacation
When you're good to Mama - Chicago Soundtrack

the sky
Master of Puppets - Metallica ...

flowers
Bandages - Hot Hot Heat

riding the subway
Wherever I may Roam - Metallica

walking down a dark alley
Strange Disease - Prozzak Lol X3

waking up early in the morning
I'll Take that as a Yes (The Hot Tub Song) - Phil Vassar

stubbing your toe on the door
My Heart, Your Hands - From First to Last

Random

What quote will you be remembered for?
Noma Numa?

What does the bumper sticker on your car say?
Hapy Boys and Girls - Aqua

What is the first thing you say in the morning?
Dance, Dance - Fallout Boy

What is the last thing you say at night?
Have a Nice Day - Bon Jovi

What are the words that you are just waiting to say to the world?
Silver and Cold - AFI

To your true love?
Image of the Invisible - Thrice

What will your gravestone say?
The Earth Will Shake - Thrice

Lol, thanks for this, Christi :)

Tue, 02 May 2006 04:30:46 GMT

I hate when people are overly immature. Stuff happens, get over it. People change, circumstances arise and you move on.

Now I wish I could follow my own advice.

Go blood splattering art sketchbook. My mother told me I was over analyzing my OWN ORIGINAL piece of art. I'm sorry if it has too much symbolism for you, Mom. Haha... I felt like a loser when she told me that.
Anyways, it's meaningful to me.

Why does it feel like I have to keep looking over my shoulder in my basement? I've been creeped out all night.

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 11:50:41 GMT

Haha, okay, so it's like, 5:45AM and I'm still up. I just finished making these and I can barely see straight. Yu-Gi-Oh! is on TV (for the second time) Haha. Anyway, forgive anytype or incorrect link. i'll fix it when I wake up again (I can't say tomorrow, or in the morning anymore!) I'm pretty proud of these babies, and I think they're adorable. The kitten one is to represent me, and the puppy is for Cody for deviantART (http://www.deviantart.com). I hope they match up for you guys, but they probably won't. And I guarantee it's not an animating fault.

The show tonight was pretty good, I must say. Even though I didn't get there until 10.

Holy crap, it's light outside, and snowing?! *Checks* Nope. Just thick fog... Maybe I'll sneak out and take some pics. (Oh ho!) It's really pretty.

But most likely I'll just go pass out.

I can see myself posting about.. 7 times today.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 19:07:37 GMT

--DRAMA DORK--
[X] Ever been in a play?
[ ] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[ ] More than 10 Broadway shows?
[X] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[X] Want to end up working in/for theater (Does hair/make p/costume cound?)
[ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[X] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
Total X: 4

--REDNECK--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch? I wish.
[X] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[X] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[X] Do you like to get dirty?
[X] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[X] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you live on more then 1 acres?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[ ] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?
Total X: 5
-GOTH--
[ ] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[ ] Is most of your clothing dark?
[ ] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[ ] Are you a social outcast?
[ ] Are you pale?
[ ] Do you like Hot Topic?
[X] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies?
[ ] Are you mean?
Total X: 1

--PUNK--
[ ] Can you skateboard
[ ] Do you wear Vans?
[X] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[X] Do you watch the x-games?
[X] Do you have any piercings?
[X] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[ ] Do you wear Band t-shirts
[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?
Total X: 4

--PREP--
[X] Do you say the word "like"?
[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero/pac sun?
[ ] Do you pop the collar?
[ ] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?
[ ] Is the only nerd you like Seth Cohen?
[ ] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[ ] Do you like pop music?
[ ] Do you want/have a little dog?
Total X: 1

--HIPPIE--
[X] Is your hair long?
[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[X] Do You want to save the animals?
[X] Do you think war is unneccesary?
[X] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[X] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[X] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
Total X: 6

--GANGSTA--
[ ] Do you act ghetto?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[ ] Do you like hip-hop?
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[X] Do you like afros?
[X] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[X] Do you like to dance?
[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X: 3

--EMO-
[ ] Do you cry often?
[X] Do you wear hoodies?
[X] Do you like soft music?
[X] Do people not understand you?
[X] Do you write your own poems?
[X] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[X] Do you cut your hair?
[ ] Are you lonely?
[ ] Is "Ohio for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights a good song?
Total X: 6

--SURFER--
[ ] Do you surf?
[ ] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[X] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[X] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[X] Are you tan?
[X] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[ ] Do you hate tourists?
Total X: 4

--GEEK--
[ ] Do you wear glasses?
[X] Do you get good grades?
[ ] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[X] Are you on the computer often?
[X] Do you ever get picked on?
[ ] Do you look forward to going to school?
[X] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[X] Do you play video games?
Total X: 5

I guess I'm mostly an emo hippie. Wewt.

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 21:25:35 GMT

I really don't know if I can take anymore of this... it's really driving me nuts right now! I know I'll probably end up looking back on this journal and saying "Aww, how could I have meant that", but I think I really do right now.

I just ASKED what he wanted to do tonight. That's all I did.
"Just tell me you want to go and get drunk"
And that's what he said. For anyone that knows him knows that Cody has this giant epic crusade against drinking and anyone that does. And he was mad at me, because I said that I didn't care, I just wanted to know what he wanted to do. He blows things so WAY out of proportion all of the time. I don't want to get "crunk". I don't want to "find a party and get wasted". I want to spend some time celebrating the start of the holiday that isn't just sitting, doing absolutely nothing. AGAIN.
Why is it that he has against doing something? We never go on dates, or to anyone's house. I know work gets in the way a lot, but when we do get the chance to hang out, he never wants to do anything.. and when I ask him if he wants to go out, he always assumes that I mean to "go find a party and get crunk".

He drove away five minutes ago, in a storm, with his little brother who listened to our whole 15 minute fight in the middle of our block, turning the stereo up a little louder with each passing minute.

He doesn't want to see me tonight. He doesn't want to see me this week. Does he mean it? No. Do I? No. But we say it anyways. Anything to make the other feel more pain than what we're feeling already. To feel the power. To get rid of the rage. Over what? We don't even remember by the end of it all. All we're aware of is how much we hate, yet love the other, and how we can't wait to see them again... Even if it's just to throw a slap or exchange foul words.

Yesterday, as Cody, me, Colette, Desiree and maybe a few others were standing at our lockers at ten minute break, Colette (randomly) tells me that I can do so much better than Cody. Cody was standing right there, and at the time had just asked me if I wanted to go get jell-o with him. And she just kept going on, oblivious to mine, and Cody's synchronized glares. We left to go get our Jell-o, with Cody buying for both of us, and we go back.. She starts up AGAIN. I mean, you don't SAY that to people. And I'm not just saying that because Cody was right there, either. It's completely and utterly insulting for both people. I just couldn't believe she said that.

I also hate it when people just DON'T CARE, either. I was pretty upset about this, so I ranted to Danielle and Krista. The only thing Krista says is "Yeah, you're right, Jamie. You could never do better." Danielle laughed. Admittedly, I had set myself up for it, and that's just the way they are... It's just wasn't the right timing, I guess.

Hmm.. Cody told me that he wished he had a girlfriend that understood him and made him happy. I know I make him happy. He makes me happy, too. I know the things he says to me or does people don't understand. It may seem like he abuses me 24/7, but he's so good to me, really. If he really was an abusive jerk... someone that didn't deserve me, there's no way I would have stayed with him for two years. I have more self-respect than that. I mean, please, give me some credit and stop judging, pointing fingers and assuming. Telling me what's good or bad for me. What someone is like, that I know way better than anyone else.

So I guess my mood has improved slightly, but I'm still mad, and so is he.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 01:03:12 GMT

For the love of all things good, if you like videos + Zelda, or anything just weird. Click here.
HOLY GOD XDDDD! Haha, this is the most pointless LJ cut ever, but I wanted to try it out :P. Love me.

Ahahaha.

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 05:35:06 GMT

So yeah, it's like.. 11:20 and I just got home from work (Dairy Queen). It's too late to call Cody, it's too late to do any homework, and it's probably too late to be writing this journal entry, but I'm doing it anyways. It's been a while since I did an honest-to-God update about my life.

Monday sucked. I forgot basically all of my daily necessities (most important of all, my pencil crayons), I had to finish my biography on Monet before I could work on my other overdue art project, which I've been working on almost every day at lunch for the past week and a half, not including during the actual art period. I'm just totally getting nowhere on it and it's driving me insane. Most of all, it looks like junk. Haha, punny because it's still life: junk food. A bunch of other things happened too, up to I smashed my thumb on my locker which suffered internal bleeding because of the mishap and is still bloody-looking. Oh, and I almost got kicked out of band.

Tuesday was barely better. Actually, it wasn't better at all, because the slight goodness there was was cancelled out by band. Not even goingto elaborate.

Wednesday I had to miss my precious art class for yet another two hour session of band (I wonder why I'm still not done my still life?). I got back halfway through my second art class, looking forward to some serious maskful downtime, to be sent up to Miss Hartney's room for registration. I had to sit so close that I could literally see up her nose. Plus, I missed 3/4 of it, so I had no idea what she was talking about anyways. There are no classes I want to take here anymore, except for the ones I have to take, and clothing. $10 says they don't even have it, because there're only two people signed up (woot, Amy haha). And that's enough detail of Wednesday.

My little brother had his heart broken today. Oh, what a little skank :(.
I had to work until 11:10.
I'm still not in bed, and am going to be tired in the morning, wake up late as usual.
I work tomorrow.

I did get a Lapointement for tomorrow though. I call it that, because not only does it sound retarded, but it's too hard for me to say "An appointment with Ms. Lapointe" so yes. So maybe I might figure out what I need to take to do what I want to do with my life, and if I have to take a class or two at Peacock, Riverview or Central.
I'm having three thoughts of future careers: Photographer, costume design.. or something with just drawing. I'm kind of getting sick of people constantly telling me that I need a back up choice, or that I should get into the trades instead. But I don't WANT to. I really would rather work at Dairy Queen, or Wal Mart or something for the rest of my life if I can't get into something like that. I think my mom got scared when I told her that. So it's probably going to be a good thing that I talk to Ms. Lapointe tomorrow.

Oh life.

Cody is being such a little emo kid right now. I don't understand what's going through his head. He thinks I like someone else, because he (the other person) always makes me laugh, and I find him funny. It's also a really close friend of Cody, and a pretty good friend of mine. Cody's saying that I don't love him anymore, or atleast never show it. I think he's just immune to my signs of affection, which makes me really sad. I'm also sick of people saying that we fight all the time, because we don't. That's just the way we are, and we actually don't fight very much at all.. Oh well.

Sarah's coming down. Not cool. Not cool at all. It's funny.. she's coming to Vanier on the 10th, but the only reason she's going to visit with people is because Preston is working that day. What a fucking joke.
God I hate... people..

Anyways, this is all one huge rant that most of you have already heard. Sorry it's so long, haha.

Tomorrow is another day.
Again.
Hopefully a better one.

That's what I like to tell myself.

This journal ended eight lines ago, why are you still reading?

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 01:20:54 GMT

This is what I really wanted to share in Creative Writing today, but it seemed a little gory and a little nonsensical. I would really like some feedback on it, though. Not sure if it's finished or if I should go on.

The sun was just setting under the tips of the trees above and around the teenaged girl, reflecting in the clouds and in her eyes. She had been heading west all afternoon, right after it happened. Her stomach was ripe with hunger, but she had left the deer where it fell. How could she have prepared it after something like that? Stooping low over a small brook in the path, she tore off her bloody gloves and hastily scooped the sandy water into her eager mouth, her thirst never quenched. She followed the tire tracks out this way, but were they even theirs anymore? She didn't think they had walked that far, and the truck was nowhere to be found. She definitely would have found it by now. She sunk down in the muddy bank and cried; it was hopeless.

Awoken by the screeching of an owl overhead, she opened her eyes, finding herself lying on the cold hard ground. The tinkling of the stream lulled her from the startle of the great bird. She watched it lazily float above, searching for prey. Hurriedly, a shrew skittered along the lichen and dirt of the clearing floor, gleaming in the ivory flush of the moonlight. It peaked its whiskers towards where she was laying, the girl’s adrenaline pumping along with the rodent’s. She sat up and backed towards the nearest tree as to get out of the light, but the shrew stood rigid. The glowing rays flickered, and were blocked out completely. In an instant the shrew vanished in a puff of silky brown feathers. She was the one who sat fixedly now, trying to calm down.

She took off her toque to wipe the sweat from her forehead. Crimson dulled the complexion of the orange of the toque, creating a mottled effect not unlike the camouflaged pattern in the rest of her suit. Was this from the shrew, deer or something else? Flicking off a piece of the caked blood, it landed on her stomach. A wave of nausea erupted, and a few birds were startled out of their nests by sounds of the retching. In place of the camouflage design was a caked bloodstain covering her chest, with signs of splattering and dripping down to her stomach. Clambering to the stream, she plunged her toque into the now ice-cold water and tried to scrub the blood from her clothing, hands and face. The familiar queasiness returned, as her finger caught in a singed hole in the chest of her overalls.

Happy birthday, Christi!
And Chantal, it was fun having you in Creative Writing today. Your responses were extremely hard to live close to, haha.

Might do another update later, with actual life stories... maybe.